"I need to make art. I don’t need fame, I don’t need any of that stuff. I need to exist, I need to be giving, I need to be sharing. It’s my job to share and give. I need to share my art - that’s all I need.” - Gerard Way.
I’ve been really shitty on here for ages and there are still actually people following me and reblogging stuff so can i just say a huge thanks to you guys for being cool. i’ve been having a shit time in my brain since May [i’m working on it] and i wanted to give off some positivity whilst i’m in a good mood. the last time i went through a really horrible period in my life, there’s one song that always reminds me of coming out of that, which is this, Constellations by Enter Shikari.
I’m not one to say a specific band or song literally saved my life, of course it helps, music is what i do, but i never listen to a song and go “fuck, i don’t feel sad anymore”, but i did listen to this song for one of the first times and it either did 1 of 2 things. 1, give me that push that i needed to get out of that ‘dark’ place, thus giving me the impression it was one of the reasons i was less depressed or 2, it just happened to be one of the songs i was listening to at the time i began to feel less depressed. To be honest, i really don’t care which it is, but it marks a period in my life and an achievement i made, and i like that, it’s a song that gives me a hope.
The point of this is that this shitty time has been the worst i’ve felt in my life, and recently i’ve felt less bad for longer periods of times. It’s important to stress it doesn’t just go away, it hasn’t just gone away, nothing’s just clicked and there’s been an epiphany where i’ve decided i’m better now. It’s important to not get ahead of yourself with this sort of thing because i don’t want to come out and say i’m better and then tomorrow i feel bad again and in turn feel like i’ve failed and sunk back in to old habits. But i like to hope. And right now i’d like to hope i’m on my way, and to be honest i just wanted to share the song that right now, is marking this time in my life. It might not be the end of my shitty-brain-time but it’s a start that’s for sure.
The song’s called Brothers and Sisters by Twin Atlantic . It feels epic, i love the lyrics and i love the chorus and the way it climaxes at the end. I heard it for the first time when driving in the car with one of my best friends in the entire world, it wasn’t on loud, and he won’t even recognise the song if he heard it, but i caught one of the choruses and went home and checked it out again and loved it. And it just feels like it sums everything up for me. I love that i first heard it driving with my best friend, because things have happened recently which have only solidified my love, appreciation and pure admiration for him. & I love that it came at a time i began my first relationship in a long time with one of my other best friends on the planet.
I’m not saying things are 100% better for me and everything’s sunshine and rainbows, i’m not saying i heard this song and it made me dance around thanking God that I didn’t want to kill myself anymore. But it reminds me what i have, and that’s some of the best friends in the world. And hope, that things will get better, and I can start doing something with my life. Hope that my best friends can do it too, because i believe in them more than i believe in myself.
Credit to Anna.
thank you! :) i hope you have a great day too
if you could all say happy birthday to the most wonderful person ive ever had the honour of being friends with that’d be pretty rad :)
i love my best friends so much just cuz they’re kinda really really cute
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BEST PERSON EVERRR. HAVE A GREAT DAY :)
my friend’s are so great and cute